During the morning conversation that I had with Azri, he told me a quote that I felt was good. “Accept what you can do and accept what you cannot do”. I’ve never really given much thought to what I can do but rather to what I cannot do. I often look for my insecurities and sometimes these insecurities empower me so greatly that as a result, I’m more insecure than I originally was. I don’t know if its human nature for humans to pay more attention to their weakness rather than on their strengths. Or maybe not, cause I know of some people who like to gloat about their “strengths” when seriously, its not that big of a deal.
Anyways, I’ve never been able to accept what I cannot do. Instead, I simply blame on the lack of hardwork or the lack of effort whenever I can’t do anything. I’ve never really viewed someone as not being able to do something. The only reason that someone can’t do anything is because they don’t want to try. Maybe its time I stop being so hard on myself and on others and accept the fact that everyone is made differently. Everyone is made with different strengths and weaknesses and God has a reason for that. But, despite that, there’s still nothing wrong with trying and still trying cause trying is much better than just simply give up. One might never know that in the midst of trying, one might discover his or her strengths.
Personally, I don’t know what my strengths are but if you ask me to list down my weaknesses, I’ll be able to give you a whole list of them. I know what I’m not capable of doing. But now, I’m taking Azri’s advice and accepting what I can do and what I cannot do. There’s nothing wrong with having flaws and its certainly isn’t a crime being good at something. Maybe by accepting my flaws and high points, I’m able to accept myself more. Able to be more comfortable in my own skin.
The other day, I saw an abandoned box that had 5 kittens in it. I was on my way to the bank when I heard soft mews and I saw a kitten crawling on the floor beside the box. When I came back, there was only 3 kittens left. I’m not a big fan of cats but the kittens with their blue eyes, were too cute to be ignored. I stayed for a while to play with it and when I went back home, I asked Mak if I could take care of them, for only a while up till they’re big enough to venture out on their own. Mak didn’t allow of course. So I went down to just have a look at them a while more. The kittens are no longer there now but I sure hope they’re safe. Cute!!
